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Great 10.9.06 Why couldn't you love me What was so wrong with me It started at the start I was just a baby then You should have seen me You should have really looked You had no idea what I was to become You didn't know I would be great But I was just a baby then The brightest blue eyes The lightest blonde hair You wouldn't have seen that Not through plastic tubes Not through metal bars on a hospital crib I almost never had the chance to be great I almost never had the chance to see How much you didn't love me But I am great And everything you should be proud of I love my writing and my games and my friends I love my life

My Tree My tree is made from the deepest hate It grew from a depressed little seed afraid of love It's the tallest tree ever And there has never been anything so green The ornaments shine with hope that things will be better And the bulbs reflect two smiles who know no loneliness. The lights burn with the light of a brilliant future The blue lights are the past that brought me where I am today The red are those of anger which sparked the growth of this tree And the desire to find a change The yellow for the light of every morning sun And hope that tomorrow will happen And green shows me that new life can grow No matter how bad

11.3.05 So many times you said that you were leaving I begged you and you said you'd stay This time there was nothing I could do My life will never be the same without you My heart shattered when I lost your embrace All I want is one last kiss And the chance to tell you how much I love you I pray this isn't goodbye but just a "see you later" I will never love someone with the passion I love you And there will never be another I hope one day you'll come home and help me Pick up the pieces of my broken heart I feared the day since the first time I said "I love you" I'm sorry I fucked this up I never meant to hurt you All I wante

10.20.05 She came to see me as soon as you left She told me she was here to stay She said things could get bad You came home and she didn't leave You held me and never knew she was there You cant see what she's doing And I wont show you You can't know there is something wrong I'm so weak for letting her in For letting her come back at all And for not making her leave Ana could ruin my life And she feeds on me knowing I can't eat Ana go away Let me keep what you're trying to steal away

12.22.03 Burn the tree Fuck my holiday My heart aches And you won't help Ease this pain The lights were so pretty The twinkle they put in your eye Red, green, yellow, blue, purple glass bulbs They shine so brightly under the lights But I just see the reflection of you with him There are no presents under our tree No love left to buy them The needles wither and fall to the floor On top of broken glass The lights are so dim now No love left to light them Burn the tree down Fuck my holiday Merry Christmas

1.1.03 The holidays went by without a second thought And everything seemed all wrong but so right With nothing to hold me back And nothing to push me on I'm not standing still And I'm not standing alone In fact you seem to be all I have And all I need I just hope this never ends You don't know what you do to me And you probably don't know that every night I'm with you Is a night I hope morning never comes Because as soon as I see the sun I know I'll have to leave But the stars and the moon bring your smile And your smile brings the taste of Reds and red Red, your lips tell a story older than time And I fall into your eyes

8.29.02 Really I'm Fine Fine is shaking hands Fine is a racing heart Fine is a bleeding arm Fine is stress Fine is working too hard Fine is being lonely Fine is being walked on Fine is not stopping when your body has had enough Fine is still going when your mind has stopped Fine is fucking just to fill a hole Fine is sleeping two hours a night Fine are the drugs that stay awake Fine is holding the world Fine is hurting so much Fine is ignoring your inner most needs Fine is lying when everything is wrong Fine is everything Really I'm fine

Its been such a long time since I've seen the smile on your face I don't know how I've gotten by Things have been hard for us But we've made it this far All I can do is believe that There is something right about us I don't know what draws you back I wonder if you know But deep down I know We'll be together always And I have so many questions I want to know how much you love me I want to know if you'll be here always My heart and soul are yours When ever you want them I just don't know what to do You hurt me so much sometimes Then you make everything better Do I hurt you too I guess I hope I do Just to see if you feel the

3.8.02 Day by day my life slips by I never see it go And now its far ahead of me And I'm still looking for something to know I let it leave so I could stay behind And learn the secrets of my mind Inside my mind I found fear and pain And I know deep down there is nothing sane Now I think nothing ever was And the only reason I can give are the simple words just because So here we are full of pain And we pretend we are all sane It makes us feel better about our lives And keeps us from digging out the knives Just because its comforting And keeps us from confronting The truths that make us go insane The truths that make us run

8.29.01 Thank You For all you've taught me And how you've helped me grow I could never tell you What it meant to me Everything we've been through Finally the family I'd never had A mother and a father A home and a place I felt safe I could never show you What it meant to me There were the times we spent together I just cant tell you What it did for me So I will just say thank you And hope you know what I mean

Looking upon the gathering of baby blue shards Huddled in a black dustpan these reflections of Time passing with hands of a naked clock cause Tears to absorb back into turquoise eyes having once Fallen toward a molten core only Saved from oblivion by filthy linoleum While the mind gasps for oxygen deprived Via tracheal blockage from the reentering of Foolish words accidentally breaking the speed of sound Alerting you to the desperate need for the Heimlich of forgiveness.

The fumbling visionary doubtless Makes decadent crumbling coffers Causticating in the wind---the wind, Sounding as an eye watching hues Of blues wined with a simple sauce Too, basically wet. Search the winding yet. Disclose, they're secrets set, Ceaseless and succulently met. Coasting down and up the wind, Portals are (with a shepherd's slaughtering) Flock encrusted door jams. Pass these few by for multitudinous They bind the first-born---the born, Yes sounding as forlorn, as you guess Of less scorn than what's waiting next Those vexed naked feet falling fast Too, waking broken. Reach the pinnacle's token. Unfurl, they're bidden spoken, P